A step forward

So Arwen was accepted into a social group that was supposed to be 6 years and up.  they kindly made an exception for her at the request of her therapist.  I had a conflict however.  I had to rearrange our schedule completely. Both, Arwen and Rowan have speech therapy on Mondays.  The people at Northwest Ohio Speech, Language, And Rehabilitation Services aka NOSLARS  really went out of their way to help me fit therapy into my already crazy schedule. I am so grateful for all the help that we are getting.
My husband was stuck on a call at work and arrived home late on Monday.  This made us 10 minutes late for the Social group.  I was already pretty nervous about that. I crept in and took a seat.  Luckily they hadn't started the session.  There was a mixup and some other folks were also late.

They split the kids up into their groups and the parents into a group. I was actually very nervous and excited.  It was so wonderful to meet other parents with Au-some children.  I think I need this.  I really look forward to getting to know them. We can learn from each other.  I am already a part of an online social group.  I spend more time talking with them than my own friends.
Anway we did our introductions in the Social group.
This nearly broke me.  I was ready to start bawling. The heat filled my face....I was flushed and my emotions were ready to boil over.  Somehow I maintained my composure.  Thank goodness.  I feel foolish crying.
What caused this? you might ask..
The stories they told.  The way their children are treated by others.  The laughing, pointing......the inability to make friends. ....the desperation and sadness.

Is this what I have to look forward to????

I see everything in a different light.  Thinking about the future is painful.  So I will settle for right now.  I'll cherish the precious moments that I have.  I will give love as much as I can.  I'll help others.

They have made me a better person.


I left that meeting feeling great.  Arwen had a great time in her group.  I am so happy to think that maybe I can connect with someone who understands.